So I've been on my work experience this week, at a hospital, and I'm supposed to have stuff to do like observing minor procedures and stuff, but it's been a really quiet week and there's been loads of times when I've had nothing to do and have just been hanging round waiting to go home. Today, however, just took the biscuit. I helped a nurse make a couple of beds this morning and NOTHING. ELSE. I was literally sat reading my book for the entire day. Apparently there isn't much going on for me to observe. Christine, the woman who organises what I do each day, is really nice and she's been fantastic, so imagine my horror when bloody mother goes in and complains that I've just been sat all day.

After lunch, Christine told me I could go home, right, so I called my parents to come and pick me up. The journey takes about an hour so I read (and finished - Twilight by the way) my book and after an hour I went down to the carpark. My mum wasn't there. I ended up waiting for an hour until she arrived, during which time the heavens had opened literally within seconds, and I had to keep going out in the rain to see if she was there. Anybody'd be pissed after that, I'm telling you, so I got in the car, which my mum parked, saying she needed the toilet.

I told her about how I'd had an awful day, having nothing to do, and she left to find the toilets. How delighted was I when she took half an hour? Half an hour on top of the hour I'd already waited, on top of waiting four hours since the start of the day to go home. I assumed she'd got lost, as I breifly went out to look in the loos and couldn't find her, but as we were FINALLY driving home, she told me she'd been to see someone about the fact that I'd been sat doing nothing.

When I'd told her about my boring day, she'd said she was going to complain and I'd specifcally told her NO. So what does she do? Fucking complains about one of the nicest people in the hospital. OMG. I was so unbelieveably angry that I just shoved my earphones in for the rest of the journeyon full blast, I could not speak to her. Does she not realise what problems her complaint could cause for me? I have one day of work experience left - tomorrow - and I have to face Christine when she's been so lovely and as helpful as she could have been to me all week.

Another factor is Ben. He's this doctor who I've completely fallen for and the phrase 'he doesn't even know I'm alive' can't even be used in this context cos he's like my teacher! He teaches me things and I'm just a kid! I'm so sick of it. I never meet anyone my own age and I really like him and I'm a fucking child. This morning, I was a couple of minutes late, and as I was walking up the stairs to the ward where I'm stationed, I passed all the doctors, including Ben, as they were off for their rounds. When I got to Christine she said I could have gone on rounds with them but she didn't know where they'd gone. And she didn't find out :'( That was when I went to make those beds before my day of reading Twilight.

On tuesday, I went on rounds with the doctors and it was great. Christine told me the ward they were on and to find Ben, who I'd breifly met on monday and thought was fit. She asked if I knew who he was and I was like 'yes I do' (in my head I was like omg yes i do yayyayyay). So I met him on the ward and walked rounf with him and the other docs, and he explained some stuff to me and that day just cemented my love for him. He's only young, liuke late twenties, a House Officer, which I think is the lowest rank of a doctor, he's cute, he's funny, he's adorable.

God I'm so depressed. I'm not speaking to my mum, my dad came up to see me, and he ALWAYS sides with her, and was about to give me the same crap about 'only doing what we think's best' and so I fell out with him as well. I'm alone, depressed, tear-stained and hungry. Not a good combination. ;____;