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  • 5th Jul, 2008 at 11:48 PM
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My emotions are all over the place.

There's so much I want to say about the ep but I simply can't write it all down! I don't know how Human!Doctor/Rose makes me feel about Alien!Doctor/Rose. I mean, technically they're the same, but they're different people. It's weird. I keep seeing series 2 piccies of them and it's making me be all 'is it the same ship? is the Doctor capabale of loivng her? how can he just hand her over like that? why didn't he seem all that bothered to be leaving her behind?' it's making my head spin.
 
I cried a lot today. It was my last day at school, officially, I haven't been there for many weeks now and it's just the school's Open Day where everyone dresses up and spends the day being bored. I was vey bored. And not at all emotional. Sertiously. Nada. Bamforth said he liked my haircut. I like Bamforth. He can be sweet. Matthew didn't show his face, apparently he was proposing to his girlfriend but wtf I dunno. It was a crap day anyway. The highlight was getting a caricature done with Sophie. I'll scan that when I get it off her tomorrow (she's photocopying it for herself).

Anyways, I didn't cry a bit about leaving school. I had a miniature argument with my mumand then I couldn't stop crying. It's seriously all about Ben. Whenever I think about him it actually hurts and I hate it but at the same time I don't want it to go away. I think I may have found him on MySpace (omg I'm a stalker) but I'm not sure if it's him :-s. If Istart crying about it, I can't stop. I only cheered up for Doctor Who and I do feel better but then I think about leaning towards him as he explained stuff to me and it makes me want to cry again ;___; 

I was doing my Journey's End picspam and one picture made me think of the phrase 'happy days' and it just reminded me of Ben saying that when telling me about surgical stuff, and it made me depressed again. I miss him so much ;___; *blames hormones*
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[info]denpagirl wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 06:10 (UTC)
Y hello thar.
My name is Gutted from Guttown, Guttania.
Seriously ;___;

I think The Doctor was beyond destroyed at letting her go which is why he had to leave really quickly. It's just that he knew that she'd eventually grow old and die and I suppose he figured that having her own him who was human was the best thing he could do...(apart from her being mysteriously Bad Wolfy immortal, which I personally would have liked better but well, there we are)

I think though...god, it is a wonder that I still can and coherently after that ep...that even with all of the earth shattering things that occured (like that Doomsday sized hole getting ripped back open and that beach scene at the end of S2 becoming that much more angsty) that Donna's mind being wiped was too cruel and just horrible. Somewhere inside he will never stop pining for Rose. But with Donna he had this amazing and wonderful friend who actually understood how deeply he felt for Rose to keep him company. RTD et al, you are a bunch of meanies. I wish Donna had died knowing who she was. And now she will never meet Lee in the future!!

Additionally, I still cannot believe that they ended the last proper series for awhile....with Ten looking .....utterly heart broken.

Goddamnit, this is sad.


I'm sorry about Ben. :(

The Daleks are right, emotions are quite ridiculous.

Kidding about that last thing. sort of.

*hugs*

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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 10:08 (UTC)
I think The Doctor was beyond destroyed at letting her go which is why he had to leave really quickly. It's just that he knew that she'd eventually grow old and die and I suppose he figured that having her own him who was human was the best thing he could do.

True. His quick exit was definitely for the sake of his own sanity. Porr, poor Doctor :'(

Somewhere inside he will never stop pining for Rose. But with Donna he had this amazing and wonderful friend who actually understood how deeply he felt for Rose to keep him company.

I know! Losing Donna on top of everything else was too cruel. When he was with Martha he never stopped thinking about Rose. It wasn't til Donna came along that he started having proper fun again. And now he's lost all of them ;___;

Additionally, I still cannot believe that they ended the last proper series for awhile....with Ten looking .....utterly heart broken.

That was so evil! I was waiting for the whole WHAT?! cliffhanger tradition but it never came, and it was just the Doctor being completely broken :'(

I'm sorry about Ben. :(

*hugs*

Thanks :)

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[info]denpagirl wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 16:14 (UTC)
I suppose I would have liked it better had the ending been more of a .....Ten looking around the TARDIS and remembering folks for a few moments and realizing that Sarah Jane is right, that he does have a family. They may age,but hello, time traveller!

Just him looking depressed and then credits was...yeah....thanks folks! Way to make the Whovians feel all ambivalent and hopeless in the face of a specials only season next year ;P.

This kept me up last night talking about it until like two in the morning. *is pathetic*

Someone needs to form an LJ comm, dws4finale_support :S

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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 21:52 (UTC)
I would have liked it better had the ending been more of a .....Ten looking around the TARDIS and remembering folks for a few moments and realizing that Sarah Jane is right, that he does have a family.

That would have been a much better note to end the series on. He reslly doesn't have to be emo all the time.

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[info]gojkilp wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 13:09 (UTC)
'He has woven himself in the fabric of your life since the dawn of time' :P Woo, Impossible Planet was an ase ep. Stalking is amusementish, I often find. Maybe you're an Irraka like my friend :P

I cried a bit when I left school, but only when I got home :/

Ye, the ep has my emotions all over the place also. I guess leaving her behind like that, with a stab at happiness, is kinda like closure for the two of them. But it's not the same! I've waited for four yers for them to kiss, but it's not quite the same. It's the best the show could do for her though, and I appreciate it. And she's been seperated from people like Jack and Mickey, so will still be lonely. I think it might've been better to leave them on her original earth, but then what about Jackie, Pete and Tony? Tis all so confusing! :'(

And I can't get my head around the fact that Rose is gone, forever! I was awake for ages in bed tossing and turning, trying to get it straight in my head, then when I did I had dreams about large groups of people saving the world, and the hurt that they felt when they all had to go their seperate ways :'( Curse my overactive imagination! I was told when I was younger that I'd have problems seeing things from others' points of view, but now I wish it were more of a problem :( *cries* Make sense in my head, you stupid thing!

But, on the plus side, since mum and I were crying after the ep, my mum actually said the word 'emo' XD Random.
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[info]denpagirl wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 16:18 (UTC)
random person, hi!
So glad I am not the only one.
Went to bed laaate and had weird dreams that there were a dozen TARDISes in separate universes, each a little different and two containing a Donna Noble o_O

I know this is how it has to be considering Pete and the Doctor's other self being awkward in the regular universe but yeah..no Mickey, no SJS, no Jack just...o_o
*must stop thinking about it*
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 16:31 (UTC)
Re: random person, hi!
Hi :P

Yay! I've talked to several people, and they all had a good night's sleep. I felt so alone :P The reason I went to bed late was cos I was reading fanfiction, which helped feed the DW-induced insomnia.

She's gonna feel quite alone there, despite family and 'the Doctor' :(

But it's hard to stop thinking about, isn't it? I had to keep stopping my music when I was listening to it cos Bad Wolf music and DW thoughts kept creeping into my head :/
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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 21:51 (UTC)
Stalking is amusementish, I often find.

lolz

I guess leaving her behind like that, with a stab at happiness, is kinda like closure for the two of them.

I suppose it is.

I've waited for four yers for them to kiss, but it's not quite the same.

I agree.

And I can't get my head around the fact that Rose is gone, forever"

omg I know! :'(
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 22:04 (UTC)
Tis the truth :P

After four years... I dunno how long it'll take to sink in properly. My mum's over the shock, and is confused why I'm not. I guess I ship them just too much... :'(
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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
6th Jul, 2008 23:00 (UTC)
Yeah, I ship Ten/Rose waaaay too much lol
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 10:25 (UTC)
Don't we all :) Well, it looks like I'm gonna have to rely on Whofic for any more pre-Journey's End Doctor/Rose...
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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 11:07 (UTC)
yar
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 15:51 (UTC)
Li, I <3 your Innuendo Squad piccy :P It reminds me of when people were trying to come up with a name for Torchwood fans :)
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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 16:57 (UTC)
thank you! :D
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 17:16 (UTC)
Stuff like that amuses me :P
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[info]staci_x2 wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 17:42 (UTC)
:)
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[info]gojkilp wrote:
12th Jul, 2008 17:46 (UTC)
:P
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